Evening

Sitting on the ottoman in the basement bedroom. The cat sits beside me and starts to purr. Feeling of comfort with him sitting beside me. I try to find the balance between being calm and alert, sitting straight and relaxing. I find myself slowly sinking into a slump. When I become aware this is happening, I make a small adjustment to straighten my spine and relax in that position. This happens over and over again. I notice that my breath comes easier when I am sitting straight. I become aware that I am clenching my jaw, and relax it. The room begins to feel cool, and I shiver. Thoughts of my swollen ankles. Thoughts of painting the furniture white. Almost falling asleep, losing awareness, and bringing myself back to awareness.