I have done an hour of housework, took my time, seems like the hour went quickly. I fed the cat, watered the lawn, took out the garbage, and went through some stuff I'd cleaned out of the car and threw it away, washed a load of clothes and hung it up to dry.
I sit on a cushion on the living room floor. Cat lies on his own cushion. I first realize that my throat is tense and relax it. When relaxing throat, a brief sensation of openness, emptiness, transparency, comes. I welcome this sensation, but it is so brief. Slight twinge of pain in upper right abdomen, being present with pain, breathing into it. This soon also passes. Breath becomes easy and subtle, sensation of breath barely hovering around the nostrils. Outer sensations seem even to quiet, reduce in volume: traffic noise, heartbeat, sounds of neighbors talking, all soften. Or is it my perception of them, my reaction to them, that softens? A popping sound, either the house settling or a moth flying into a window, startles, sensation of white light behind eyeballs. Feeling of alertness, even as a small slumping occurs. Alert in one part of brain, sleepy in another? I've read that dolphins sleep on one side of the brain at a time. Seems like a long session, wondering if I pushed the button to start the timer.
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