I forgave myself the hour of housework tonight because I worked an hour of overtime at work and had to stop at the grocery store to pick up some things for lunches. It was about 11:00 when I got home. I fed the cat, washed a load of clothes, put the groceries away, and sat down to meditate.
The cat laid down on the carpet. I patted the empty cushion beside my cushion and said to him, "You can come over and meditate with me." He got right away what I was saying and got up and lay down on the cushion. But, he was soon up again and about his cat business.
Thoughts of the day's events, replaying mental tapes of conversations. Tiredness, tension, pain, in spine and rib cage. Body won't settle, mind won't settle, breath strained and ragged. Feeling of restlessness, and thoughts that this session is a waste of time, wanting to end the session early. But, I persist; the timer goes off. That's how it is.
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