Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Monday evening 8/6/07
I stopped 2 minutes short of my 30 minute meditation session. My mind is playing tricks. I thought I could remember that the timer had already gone off, and I had gone over the time. The cat came in the room only after I was through meditating. This session, I had difficulty unwinding from a busy day at work. so it took a while for mind to settle. Then when it did settle, I would find myself entering that sleepy state, having little dream vignettes. In one, I was playing a computer game. In another, I was talking with a co-worker. Closing up the lab was crazy tonight, stressful, worked an hour of overtime. I am tired, and find it difficult to maintain that balance of relaxation and alertness that meditation requires. It feels boring and unproductive tonight. And, I didn't really want to meditate, but I made the effort. So, it's time to get some sleep.
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2 comments:
Sounds like we share some similar struggles...i definitely find sleepiness to be one of my major roadblocks during meditation, even when i'm well rested
Aaron
Yes, I, too, tend to be a night person and find it difficult to get to sleep at a time that allows me to get up feeling rested in the morning. Luckily, my work schedule is from 12:00 noon to 9:00 p.m. But, in my case, I think I sometimes play mind games with myself and do unproductive things such as playing computer games in order to put off things I don't want to do. Avoidance. Being aware of such things helps me, I think, to root them out.
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