I sat the whole 30 minute session, maintaining attention for most of the time. There were a couple of times I checked out and went into dreamland. Both times it seemed like I was rehearsing conversations about work. One of the times, I realized that I had lost attention and came back to presence. The other time I "startled" awake. I sat with the slider open, so lots of sounds accompanied my meditation: a train with a shrill, strident horn, traffic noise, my heartbeat. I felt my breath most actively at the edges of my nostrils.
I note that it seems easier to meditate on the weekends when I don't have as much going on: work and other duties, and am fresh. I felt a little discouraged after yesterday's session in which I was unable to maintain attention at all, or only for a very short time. I attributed that to tiredness and a dull mind state. Modern life seems difficult, and meditation is not always easy. But, by now I have been practicing for long enough to know that those days happen; and it's best to just cut myself some slack and try again the next day.
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