Working with Avoidance 9/23/07

I overslept this morning. I had intended to get up and do some things this morning before Beth and I went to lunch. I woke up the first time at 8:30, got up and went to the bathroom, and then went back to bed until 11:30. So, it wasn't just oversleeping; it was avoidance. And, I had stayed up late Saturday night goofing around with the computer, avoiding going to bed. So, today, I decided to perform an act of kindness that I haven't made a routine of doing. I filled the bird feeder and replaced it in the tree in the back yard. In my mind, maybe this will balance out the avoidance behavior I did before. I don't know if this is a psychologically sound thing to do. I hope I'm not just reinforcing the pattern of avoidance. But, it gave me a good feeling to do something for the birds. So, we'll see if my avoidance loosens up any. I did get some things done today that I wanted to do. I had lunch with Beth and Alyssa. I talked with Vicki on the phone, maintaining my relationship with my daughters and granddaughter. I took out the garbage, did laundry, cleaned the cat box, got gas in the car, and groceries for lunch for the week. I meditated, paid my bills, and returned some materials to the library.